As I put the receiver back down on that pay phone. Dripping wet on my way back to my car. I felt something inside of me, within my gut. With water dripping off my nose. I took off my water-drenched suit coat and threw it in the back seat of the car. I sat there contemplating and digesting what this was going to be, and within my gut, instantly. I knew that I was going to go create my own company. And I knew that no matter how difficult or challenging the path ahead would be, that was exactly what I was going to do. I didn’t know how it was going to come to pass. I didn’t know how I was going to create the large amounts of money. It would take to make this happen. I didn’t know all of the details, but I knew clear as day. That it was going to get created and it was going to happen.
That knowings, a gnawing at my gut and my soul, had been there for some time. Actually went back to the day that I sat in that CEO chair on my very first day in my new position. I always thought this was going to be it and the final path of my career. And now we know it was not. At the time I expected I would be sitting in that chair for many, many years ahead, and it might even be the apex of my career. But I knew even in that moment as I first sat in that chair, that this was not the final path for me. I knew there was something else coming and calling. So in hindsight, by being fired I was actually freed from my old 15-year path with this company, freed for a new journey. I had many, many highs and lows along the way, as we all do in life, but I had great fondness for what that path had been. Yet my gut and my Higher Power connection knew that something new was going to be created. And now freed, I was out to manifest and create that something new.
People ask me all the time how I felt about this coming to an end after all of those years. They knew how much this path and company had meant to me. Was I sad, was I depressed, was I devastated? These are very valid and normal questions when someone is in this situation. However, what I shared with them was there was actually a sense of completion and peace. It’s kind of like if you’ve been reading a very long book for a very long time. You’ve picked it up and put it down many times, but you’ve always stayed with the story. Then there is that day you finally come to the last chapter, to the last page, and you close the book. You’re left with the thought, “WOW, I didn’t quite think that story was going to end that way. But what a really great book.”
So the manifestation probably came from just really constantly tapping into my Higher Power. I don’t know what you call your Higher Power or your Higher Source, but for me, I call that God. I simply find that ‘God’ is the easiest way to sum it up. I have always had a sense of connection into a consciousness, a knowing that there’s something greater than myself. There is something much greater than I as a human being can encompass, and I know there’s something much greater than us collectively as human beings. All you have to do is look around at nature, look at the sky, look at the universes and how the sun knows to come up every day and the tides know to ebb and flow. I don’t think there’s any dispute that there is a higher energy, a higher purpose, a higher plan or the science of things that none of us profess to fully understand. So for me, I call that a Higher Power. God is the sum of all that is, in this universe and all universes.
Along my journey of being a man, a salesperson, a manager, a leader, a husband, a father, a grandfather, a friend… all along the way I have known that, as Wayne Dyer so eloquently has put, that I am a spiritual being having a human experience. I’ve always resonated with that phrase because I have known that to be true. And I knew that my path and my desire to be successful, to achieve status and wealth, was only one of the things that I was put on this planet to do. I knew this because I was tapping into a Higher Source, Higher Power, and higher consciousness. I did this through many sources such as prayer, reading, meditations and affirmations, writing, and attending church or a temple. I knew the only way to success financial, status, purpose or otherwise was to do it by serving and creating value.
For me, those paths brought me into seeking out, reading and understanding about the different paths, philosophies and religions from East to West. I found I really do resonate with the Buddhist-type thinking and principles and the Eastern philosophies, although I was brought up in the West in a very traditional Catholic faith. I’ve now merged the philosophies in a way that fits for me. What I’m saying here is that I always had a higher purpose and a higher knowing. I remain eternally grateful to my parents who gave to their five boys a base foundation in core religious beliefs. Most of all their example of how they practiced and lived their faith as best they could themselves left a positive impression on me. I choose to explore beyond my base faith. At the core it gets down to love, which is truly the base of all religions and spiritual faiths. I believe that whatever your path, you must always tap into your own higher source to sustain you.
That said, I’ve known from a very, very young age that if I listened, stopped, sat in silence, followed my gut, if I prayed and waited for answers, they would come. I thought and I knew, “Everything happens for a reason,” and then I looked within that particular reason for signs about what I was searching for. I always knew that I would be guided. And so I have been. I have always followed my gut. I have always followed my instinct. I have always followed some unknown nudging, even if I couldn’t explain it or understand exactly how it was going to work out. I faithfully followed it.
In addition to being intuitive and following my higher purpose and my higher path, I have also been a planner. I’ve learned this through mentors, workshops, corporate, personal, and company accountability, and trial and error. I have learned that anything you can think, say, do and put from thought to word, to action, to deed, becomes a reality. That anything that you think about and focus on expands. And I realized if I could get very detailed with that in the planning process, beyond my intuitive, Higher Power consciousness, I knew that would be a very powerful manifestation combination. And it has proven to be so.
This has shown up in my life in various forms. Sometimes it’s through people or situations that speak to me as clearly as my own defined thoughts. Sometimes it’s like a series of green lights in life, confirming my way, where everything just seems to line up.